Remember?

Mind Made Up, Heart Closed Up

I've made up my mind

for what I believe to be

the final time

can I stay away?

I will only tell by the days

that pass by

so slowly

torturing me as each second slips by

time lingers in your absence

like your presence lingers in my soul

it will take years to shake this feeling

of being so far gone

you have become a drug

I'm addicted to your words

whatever they may be

I call you up to get a hit

and then crash when I hear the receiver click

I long for a chance encounter

just a chance to see

the face that once loved me

the withdraws consume my body

eating my heart from the inside out

the pain takes me over

i shake and sweat in bed

dreams, nightmares filling my head

they continue through the day

ghosts breathing down my neck

I can't escape

my addiction

it chases after me

but I must overcome it

learn to put you away

you put me away

now its my turn

I must walk away

and never look back

at our love that was

at my broken heart

I must learn to close it off

become cold and numb

and make up my mind

once and for all.

Goodbye is what you want,

so goodbye my love.

Alone

You are everywhere.
And yet you are nowhere to be found.

I see your face in the faces of others,
I feel your touch as I brush by strangers,
I hear your voice in every song sung,
I smell your scent in the air above me hung.

My heart drops into my stomach
when I hear your name
If by chance I see you
I suddenly cannot breathe

Sometimes I think I am fine
I find myself laughing at something someone said
But something always brings me back
down through the folds of my torn broken heart.

and I hit the bottom
enveloped in the darkness,
I then remember what my mind tried to forget,
I am all alone.

You are everywhere,
and yet nowhere to be found.

I and Love and You

Music heals.
So I listen.
I listen all day long.

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This is Exactly How I feel...

Taylor Swift: Last Kiss Video Link


I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered
For just us to know
You told me you loved me
So why did you go
Away?

Away...

I do recall now
The smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement
I ran off the plane
That July 9th
The beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt
I can still feel your arms

And now I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is 
I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember
The swing in your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then
You pull me in
I'm not much for dancing
But for you I did

Because I love your handshake
Meetin' my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions
[ From : http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/last-kiss-lyrics.html ]

And I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

So I watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe
And I keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines
And it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you
You wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind

So
I'll go sit on the floor
Wearing your clothes
All that I know is
I don't know how to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

Just like our last kiss
Forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last...

Broken Promises, Broken Heart

 I remember a time
not too long ago
you said you'd love me forever
you promised eternity

but then why now are you gone?
so quickly from my life you left
feeling nothing left
in your heart for me

you promised to always hold my heart
and never let yours leave mine
said you would love for always and forever
with all your heart and soul

it seems only yesterday we were happy


laughing
holding
kissing
loving

telling each other how we never wanted those moments to end
we wanted to stop time
because nothing else mattered
but our love

i loved you so much
i guess I loved too hard
I must have done something
to deserve this eternal pain

you left my side so easily,
so quickly moved along
saying you felt nothing
and that we were not right anymore

how could you promise me forever and for always
only days before this happened
talked of pleasures yet to come
and then BAM this happened

and here I lay
broken
beaten and bleeding
all our love onto the floor

broken heart.
broken promises
broken love,
that i feel will never mend.

:(

Im trying.

Im trying.
Just so you know.
Sorry you don't want to see how sad I am.
You don't want to see my tears, see my pain flowing from my eyes.
Im sorry that I feel you don't care.
But do you?
You seem so okay already.
Like nothing happened.

I am trying.

trying to move on like you have.
its only been 2 weeks.
Be patient please.